Every stupid December 31 I make resolutions. It's never just one - there's always like 4.
And by January 3 they're usually shot to shit.
This year was no exception.
Here was my dumbass list:
1. QUIT SMOKING
2. STOP DRINKING SODA
3. LAY OFF THE FAST FOOD
4. Seriously FOCUS on losing weight.
Just so you know - All of these we're broken by the 1st at around 6pm.
Then comes the guilt. I've totally been beating myself up over it for the last 3 days.
We're trying to get into a quit smoking program that's offered by the Med Center. They provide your patches at no coast, you get a counselor and they pay you for your time.
It all sounds like a good plan to me. Randy and I both tried going cold turkey and it was just a bad idea.
Not only that, but I ENJOY smoking. Really I do. HOWEVER, I enjoy my children and want to see them grow up and have kids so I can spoil them rotten.
ALSO- I found a wrinkle on my face.
FREAKNIG OUT NOW!!!!
Hello?!?! I'm 27 - I shouldn't have wrinkles yet!!
I'm blaming the smoke.
Do you think that's vain??
On to the Soda - Yeah, not gonna happen while I'm working overnights. I NEED DIET COKE.
FAST FOOD- I can control that one, not cut it out, but control it. Once a day is not acceptable. Not that I've been that bad, but it's been outta control.
LOSING WEIGHT - It's a never ending battle. I do really well then I fall off the wagon and getting back on just gets harder. See, my dear internets, I have no shame in telling you that I've been off the wagon since Thanksgiving. Things got stressful and I'm an emotional eater. However, I've been sick 3 or 4 different times since then and have just plain felt like shit. It's gonna suck but it has to be done.
Randy even put my Ab roller together for me this weekend so I need to start workin it!
As always, I'm just on a quest to be a better person. I'm trying to be nicer to the kids and Randy( not that I'm all that mean to the kids..... Randy isn't always so lucky). I need to spend more time with my Parents, Sister, Nephew, and Grandpa. I needed to be nicer to my youngest brother and remember that he is only 19 and I was a fuckstick,window licker at that age too. I need to write my oldest baby brother more and let him know that I love him. I need to tell my husband how lucky I am to have him and how I can never live without him. He is my soulmate.
I need to call friends that I haven't talked to in forever and make time for them. I need to learn how to do all of these things without feeling like I'm spred too thin (how I usually feel).
Wish me luck! That is if you're still reading since this has been the longest post EVER
Peace Out Bitches and Happy 2006!!!!!